My Serpent

Such unexpected poison, 
Corrupting my soul,
Consuming it like no danger would befall me,
You enticed me with sexual pleasures,
Teasing me with affections,
I could not refuse you,
Part of your endless game,
Your denying me,
To keep me wrapped around your fingers,
Those same fingers you wrapped around my neck,
Squeezing tighter,
Choking the life from my frail state of mind,
Knowing just when to let your other side shine,
You were my serpent,
Whispering sweet lies,
Till I peeled the veil from my eyes,
Such agonizing pain was what made me realize,
You were an addiction,
Quitting you was my salvation.

 

Written By: Christina Cantalupo

 

p.s. just to let everyone know I wrote it. I have just gone back to my maiden name. :)

Inescapable

Dripping,
Seeping,
What is this feeling?
Slowly flowing,
Between the cervices,
Inescapable vacuums,
Slithering into gaping wounds.
Daring with,
Its endless taunts,
To venture further,
Grasping to reality,
Before the consumption,
Of its sweet perfumes.
 
Written By: Christina Holt

Pictures Of Places I’ve Been #3

These photos were taken while driving through Death Valley, CA during sunset.

I know some of them are a bit dark, but I loved how the different shadows of the mountains and different colors looked. The sunset was beautiful that night, I should have pulled over to get a better clear shot. Oh well… Enjoy.

~Christina~

Exercising, And My Road To Discovering I Needed To Start!

So, my journey begins in the world of exercising. I decided it was time to start making myself a healthy person, stop making excuses,(like my thyroids don’t work properly or my SI Joint hurts) and kicking my butt into gear.

About a month ago it all began, I went to sketchers and got their go run shoes. I was going to start working out or running I should say in a couple of days. Did I, no I did not. I sat their day after day watching my nice shiny new shoe box collect dust, as I said to myself tomorrow, I will start tomorrow. It didn’t happen though because I made myself busy with other things. Or to be honest just sat there in a state of depression because I was gaining weight and not losing any, finding myself making stops at Starbucks for their delicious Carmel Frappacinos, because frankly I had given up.

Then I started to read stories of other women going from my state that I was in to being exercise junkies. It made me happy it made me sad, and I cried some. If they can do it why cant I! I want to get back to my thinner self, I can do it. Of course I will never look like I did when I was 16, but I can get close to it hopefully. So after that what did I do, NOTHING. It was like it almost made me even more depressed at were I was because they were all thinner and it was going to be a long road to get to that.

So another two weeks later and I still hadn’t started exercising, will I ever begin my journey into becoming a exercising fiend or just be unhealthy and all that comes with that? Will I put on those nice new shoes and put them to good use?

The answer is yes! I do not know what was my final straw, I think I just got tired of being depressed. No christian should ever be like that. I had to final put it in Gods hands and get my butt in gear.  I just started yesterday, I know only two days, but hey that’s a start!

I Started with a mile and I will work my self to longer distances. Yesterday, I did a 19 minute mile and today I already cut it down to 17 minutes, which really made me happy. I know I probably wont see weight loss results right away, but just seeing me do a faster time makes me glad that I started. I also started a 1200 cal a day, so it will help me lose weight as well. Also my go runs shoes are really comfortable.

I really cant say enough how good I feel from just doing it the last two days! I am going to be doing it every day and will keep my blog posted with what I am doing and what I have worked myself up to. I have realized over the years that you cant get anything by just sitting there and doing nothing you have to go out and get it. You can try all the diets you want and you might lose weight for a little, but as soon as you get off back it comes. You have to work hard and discipline yourself be open to help and advice make it into a lifestyle to be a better you!

If anyone has any tips or advice please comment and let me know. I am open to any help on my journey, hope you take this ride with me, or if you have been thinking about beginning now is better than ever!

~Christina~ ;)

Pictures of Places I Have Been

So for a long time now I have wanted to put up pictures that I have taken.  They will vary from nature, people, etc..Over the next few months I will be putting pictures up as often as I can. We shall see what happens. Hope you all enjoy!

P.S. I have not made any changes to these photographs. They were all taken by me. ;) These were all taken at Mt. Whitney

 

Black And Grey

Dark,

Looming,

Rupturing,

Pouring Down,

To wash away the filth,

We have left behind,

Crying,

Wailing,

Its lonely howls,

To blow away,

Our lingering waste,

Your shades of,

Black and grey,

Like captured photos,

Blurred to hide their secrets,

This alluring storm,

Binding me to its beauty,

As it slowly drifts away.

Written By: Christina Holt